Monday, July 29, 2013

Placement call -- #2

Lisa:  How exciting!  Aaron and I got another call for a placement while we were on a movie-dinner date.  I actually felt happy tingles this time!

There was a premmie baby girl that was coming out of the hospital after 4 weeks in the NICU.  The birth mother changed her mind giving the baby up for adoption at the last minute so the case ended up being a temporary placement.  So we declined again.  Guilt kicked in again for a day or two.

Making these decisions are tough!!  I hope we don't jinx ourselves.  Need positive vibes!  Positive vibes!

Wednesday, July 24, 2013

Placement call -- #1

Lisa:  Surprise!  We got a call for a possible placement today, and we didn't even let our social worker know we were ready to try again! 

There was a 3-year old girl who needed a home and was probably able to bypass the usual process and would go straight to permanent custody.  Sadly I broke down and cried just hearing the message, not because the little girl needed help but because I kept thinking of Nate and how much I miss him.  Clearly I was not ready emotionally.  Aaron thought we needed more time to unpack and taking this placement was too soon.  So we made our first decline.  I felt guilty for a day or two, thinking the girl may be homeless somewhere without our help.  But we didn't get a call back so all is assumingly well.

Monday, July 22, 2013

To stop or do it again...

Lisa: As suspected, Aaron and my trip home to Hawaii did us a whole lot of good.  We were able to grieve losing our foster son to his family earlier in the month.  We spent time with friends and family on the beach and in great weather, which opened our hearts and minds to move on from a sad situation to possibly fostering to adopt again.  We will always love our little boy Nate, but we can't wait to have another little one in our house again. 

Now that we are home, we just have to figure out when the right time is to try again.